Disappointment

I just don't understand how it can happen. How can a person be one way most of the years of their life then suddenly do a 90 degree change. Their beliefs in what is right and wrong, their faith, the people they associate with...all changed...and not for the better! I realize that I tend to go through life with blinders on, refusing to see the bad in people, but when it is blatantly shoved in my face how am I supposed to react!? The only word that I can associate with any of it is disappointment. There are other words like, disillusionment, displeasure, distress, frustration, regret, failure, defeat and on it goes. I'm not saying the person is a failure but that I must have failed them in some way. Does it mean I don't care, absolutely not! Maybe I care too much!
I just can't let my life be driven or defined by what this one person is doing with their life. I can't turn my back on them but I can distance myself and in doing so it is quite literally breaking my heart.
If this person reads this post and understands who I'm speaking of, take heart, you're still loved but the chasm that separates us is getting wider and deeper and I'm at a loss as to what to do about it.

Sign of the Times

Many of you who know me probably already know about this but I just wanted to vent here on my blog.

Friday afternoon between 1:30PM and 2:00PM my daughter and son-in-law's house was burglarized! The thieves took their big screen TV and a camera. They even went so far as to take the paperwork for the TV. They also did quite a bit of damage to the entry door that they used and traumatized my grand-doggie!

Despite all of that my son-in-law posted in facebook that they may have been able to steal their material things but they could not steal the Joy they have in the Lord! What faith! When I read that I wanted to shout! The Joy of the Lord is their strength!

Nothing New

No new job for Phil but at least I'm still employed. For how long, no one knows...we take one day at a time.
On a good note (I guess) our legal battles are just about to start so we should be through with all of that in a few weeks. I spoke with our attorney and the wheels will be set in motion next week. I'm so ready for it to be all over and get on with my life.
I haven't been in much of a mood to create anything. I've got so many projects started but just can't seem to find the energy or thought process to complete any one of them. I have a new blog design started, a new camera strap, several layouts but everytime I go to work on them I wind up shutting everything down. I just sit and stare at each item like it's foreign to me. Guess I need some "Happy" pills!
I haven't been doing so great with my diet either and that has me bummed in a big way. In fact, in a step in the right direction, I'm going to check on on-line calorie counters as soon as I finish this.
So, if anyone reads this, say a prayer for Phil and me (and of course our 3 fur babies)

Interesting Times?

If I hear one more person say we are living in exciting or interesting times I'm gonna scream!
The economy is on a downward spiral, the jobless rate is climbing, families are losing their homes and worse each other! I don't know about the rest of you but I'm ready for it ALL to end! Am I suicidal? No, I'm just looking for a better place and I know in my heart of hearts that it exists!
Phil has not found a job and things are looking very bleak at work. We have layed off over 12 people and are getting ready to cut production hours! Everyone is snapping at each other. I just hate it! We have less employees working here now than we did when I first started working here over 7 years ago.
Everyone is looking to our politcians for an answer, which is not the answer, they are the greediest of the greedy and yes, I count our current president right there with all of them. Politics and politicians can't save anything or anyone!

Digi Scraps Drive In

I've been looking for a new group since the closing of Digital Design Den and thanks to Kim I think I've found it. Most of my good friends of the Den are there plus there are new people to get to know! I love the look and feel of this place. Stop by and check it out!

To All My Online Friends

I just want to thank you for all of your words of encouragement! Sandy, I know this doesn't define who I am. I just worry about the age factor and the lack of jobs. We aren't spring chickens so it will be hard for Phil to find something. I am trying to be hopeful that maybe this is a way to open up the possibility of moving closer to one of my kids. We do have an appointment with an attorney next week to discuss our finances. Please continue to keep us in your prayers, I don't want to make any decisions without God being involved.

It's Over for Phil

All these weeks of ups and downs and now it's finally over. Phil has joined the ranks of all the other unemployed in this country and the world for that matter. I'm sure he will find something and in the mean time I at least still have a job, it's just going to be hard to go to that place knowing what I know and feeling the way I do. I know the Lord will provide but Dusty has been sick again. We had to make a run to the vet again this past weekend. He just can't seem to get rid of this bacteria in his tummy!
We will be making some major life changes in the next few weeks including filing bankruptcy, we just have no other choice. I don't make enough to pay all the bills. If we lose everything but each other and the dogs we'll be fine. In fact, I'm looking at it as a possible opportunity to move closer to my kids!
If you read this, please keep us in your prayers.